View from the Top of the Mountain

As I've expressed here before I am very happy that I am done with classes and that my time in graduate school is coming to an end. For several weeks now I've had it in my mind to write this blog but just now decided to sit down and write it (feeling moved to write after listening to Josh Agerton talk on Sunday about our continuing efforts to move our lives from self centered to God centered). Last semester was stressful and busy and I was angry and disappointed with myself for letting the craziness of school interfere with my relationships with my friends, my husband, and most importantly my relationship with God. Last semester I felt like I was in a valley, in darkness from the shadow of a mountain that was impossible to climb. In this low place it was hard to see why I was there. I knew that there was a reason, but it is hard for me to be patient. Now that I have made it out of the valley and to the top of the mountain that was grad school(not by my own strength, though!) I can see more clearly all the work God was doing in me, even as I was having trouble making time for Him. If God was like grad school He would have failed me miserably in my efforts last semester, but instead, just like in every other facet of my life, God loves me no matter what and uses the bad parts to grow me! God's love is so amazing to me! I do not think we can ever fully comprehend the depth of His love for us, and I find it hard to put into words how it feels to be loved in the way that only our Savior can love us. I think all I can say it HALLELUJAH! It is amazing that I am actually able to be thankful for last semester now! Standing atop this mountain I know that there will be many more valleys but I also know that no matter how deep a hole I go in my Creator's love will reach!